If tomorrow never comes

Photo By Carin Smolinski

Everyday I am with my children. And every day at some point or another, I feel like all patience is gone. The laundry pile is growing, the dishes are always dirty, the toys are never put away, and I am always tired.

Then I read a story about a friend of a friend's baby with a brain tumour. Or receive an email from a friend of mine who lost a baby of her own.

These are the moments that cause me to slow down, to a near stop and breathe.

I am so blessed to be in the presence of my children every day. They are incredible people and I get to be a part of their journey as they grow.

I hope they will always want me around.

I sit here and I am thinking to myself "my children are alive and healthy" and that simple thought, that is so easy to take for granted, makes me cry with joy.

These are the lyrics to a song that always makes me smile, and think of how much I love my little girl

It is meant as a love song, but really, is there any love stronger than the love a mother has for her children?

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IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES

Garth Brooks

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

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I love that song.

If there’s one part that I hope will stick with you it is this:

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

I have never been one that is good at communicating my feelings, ok let me change that. I have never been good at communicating positive feelings. I don’t have a problem telling people I am upset. There is something so intimate and scary about opening up and telling someone you love them. I don’t mean the obvious ones like my husband, but the ones that are more awkward to admit.

You know, the friends that you love and mean a lot to you? It creates an uncomfortable social moment sometimes and as humans we don’t like to feel awkward do we?

To all my friends who are reading this blog:

I love you. Thank you for your support. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for laughing at my jokes. Thank you for hopefully continuing to read in the future when I promise to get less sappy, I know it has been sappy for a couple days.

Thank you for being in my life.

*Liz